Ilchi Lee

Today's calss was great the vibration we did this morning really helped me focus on energy and let my mind be at peace the whole time.  I still feel tired this week but feel clearer and lighter than usual.  so glad we are meeting as a group 4 x a week to help reenforce what i do on the weekends.

week 2 begins tomorrow with the group.  Can't wait

I am feeling more purposeful as I feel more sure of what I'm doing.  I find myself consciously aware that I'm tensing my shoulders, neck, face...and relaxing those muscles.   Subtle changes, but changes nonetheless.

Today I feel sad, but I think that is okay.  Sometimes things seem overwhelming yet each person I meet, and everyday life seems to be more clearer than ever.  Today I cried and cried as this week my Aunt got into a car accident.  She was on her way to see my cousin who just had a hysterectomy, but my aunt never got there.  Instead she got into an awful car accident that smashedher face, broke her nose, and made her lose an eyeball.  I saw her in the hospital yesterday.  It did not look like her.  Tubes down her mouth, her nose packed and sewed up.  One eyeball the one that was lost that had stitched around it like frankenstien and was now infected and multiple fractures around her face.  When I entered the room with my husband I held my emotions back.  I looked at my Aunt's hair and her hands and feet that made me feel who she was and not what she looked like.  So I took her hand, told her it was me.  I told her I loved her, and she had a strong spirit, and that she was a good person.  I told her if she heard me to squeeze my hand.  At that point I felt a surge of heat and pulses in her fingers through my hands.  I turned around and told the nurse I felt something, I felt something.  She said yes even though she is on a respirator and sedated she may still hear you.  Today I don't feel like yesterday so much.  Today I cried, and only could hope where my Aunt is right now chunjikun is there with her providing for her a safe place where there is no fear or anxiety.  I hope in my heart if it is more love or energy that my Aunt needs then I want to help her.  I want to give that to her even if my own energy is not eneough...I would go so far to ask the healers at my center...I would do that for my Aunt.  I would do it for anyone.  Whoever reads this please say a prayer for my Aunt, Please send her chunjikun, and if she wants to come out of this please send her healing energy because in my heart I believe she does.  Tommorrow they will try to take the respirator off, however she has pneumonia.  She will need time to heal.  I want to stop thinking about the fractures the missing eye, the pain she may feel.  I want to believe right now where she is is safe.  I love you Aunt Frances, and I know whoever is reading this will send her healing energy, and we all do appreciate that.  I love you all for that and thank you.  I hope she will get better.  She is 65.

Today i feel tired.  I did my usual hour and 15 at the gym and was refreshed when i got to work but as the day drug on it seemed to get worse. News from a friend brought on such sadness, and i know i can be there to help him thru this sad time but i must get a grip on me.  I did my 21 bows tapping and brain vibration and slight meditation, i feel lighter but no where near the same feelingsi experience at our 5 am group training.  I must take advantage and learn from it and find that same feeling at home by my self.  I will get there.

Today was a challenge during class.  I actually woke early and did some light cleaning and then took Buddy for a good walk/job.  I felt really energerized after the walk and my foot was slightly tender but felt pretty good.  Later when I went to class I thought the tightness I felt in the left of my back in the lower hip area would go away - and it did feel slightly better but is stillvery tight and tender.  It's been a quiet and relaxing day today however, and I look forward to what tomorrow brings.

It has been almost two weeks since I returned from Sedona Mago Gardens and Dahn Healer School.  I am still on a marvelous high from experiencing a most wonderful experience.  Over the 12 days of Dahn Healer School I had a transformational experience touching my soul and learning how to release long hidden blockages restricting my goal to bring health, happiness and peace to myself, my family and the whole world.  The revelations were very emotional and very healing.  I was guided by some of the most sincere and caring masters in the world.  Masters Lee, Kang, Chun Suk, Luke, Yang, Tara, Blue Ocean (Chun Hae) and volunteers Sung Shim and Han Myung were truly awakened Earth Humans sharing Principles, Practice and Ideas of healthy living.   I learned to experience and deliver Chunjikiun (Cosmic Energy) on a deeply personal level that was so powerful.  I experienced deep healing both physically and spiritually.  I met 19 of the most sincere and gentle people from all over this great country.  I met my soul sister Bettina who truly shared her soul with me and helped me better understand myself.  I experienced some of the most spectacular and beautiful vistas on Planet Earth.  The beautiful red rocks of Sedona, the marvelous desert scenery and vegetation, the stunning gardens, lake and landscaping at Mago Gardens all were so inspiring to enhance personal introspection and touching ones True Self.  I did not want to leave but I realized I have a mission to share the love of cosmic energy, the divinity within all of us and the desire to bring health, happiness and peace to Earth.  We all have a responsibility to awaken to our souls to a sacred duty to help recover sanity to the world.  If not me then who, If not now then when.  I know the path will have obstacles but nothing worth having was ever achieved without struggle.  We owe it to God and to our descendents to create a new culture of Earth Humans who do not talk from their Egos, who do not judge who is right and who is wrong, and who live in the presence realizing that all we really have is our next breath.  We need to let the past go as that can no longer hold us hostage, and the future is never certain.  Even a 100 years is a millisecond in the age of the cosmos, so life is transient at best.  Only our True Selves, Our Souls are eternal.  Our only responsibility is to complete our souls, to achieve Chun Hwa.  I have just begun to learn how to be a Great Dahn Healer.  I hope to live up to my Dahn Healer Declaration.  Gamsa Hamnida to all the beautiful Earth Humans at Mago Gardens

After class yesterday, it was suggested that I do the head shaking after I finish the body tapping.  I did this, paying particular attention to my head and neck.  I did not have any dizziness or pain today.  I do feel like accomplishing things.  Hope this lasts when I return to work. 

Today I have started to study to take my Japanese Language Proficency Test.  I have tried to study for it before but, I would always tell myself it is to hard or not needed.  So today i decided to tell myself "gogodoudan da yo" "That's proposterous" and just get it done.  It will take about a year to prepare.  

I may need lots of support tostay focused but this year I will complete my JLPT.

I will not give up. I will start another cycle with more realistic goals...

Deep breathing while looking out my bedroom window at the tree out my window gave me a sense of focus.  Again, I began the head shaking.  This time my neck was not so painful, but I found I became very dizzy.  I also found that I clenched my jaw.  Even consciously relaxing did not ease the dizziness, so I did not complete that.  The body tapping helped me feel awake andalive!